Wednesday, March 26, 2014

No firm decision today

Never been so tired. Nope! Been worse actually ... Exhausted like crazy. Almost fall from my 22C seat in this new plane cabin. Sitting next to a sweet lady who offered me a candy. "No thanks Mam, I have too sweet of a life in the past days, " I thought in my head.

Againt my head is flying far far away, passing the thick sky this evening, to the conversation I had with those two big businessmen. How perhaps many common people think that those who runs big business have no heart. Well, not always. These two aged men were the sweetest persons who welcomed our trip to that island of hope. In the conversation I had with them they told me that one of the important thing that one should have when running a business is not only education, strategy, skills ... but most of all guts and firm decisions. 

Rachma, be firm in what you want to do in your life ...with your work. Remember that you own your prerogrative decision. You can take control! When you have it that use it. But make sure it is leading to the right direction. 

I thought in my head, " Sirs, that is why I am not a big businessmen like you both, I just cannot make decisions, fragile decisions. I have no guts." I sighed deeply. The lady next to me stared at my ipad monitor, ... Trying to read...and looked down when I caught her of staring at my ipad. Meanwhile I dont really care. She can read it. 

Damn, I cannot. Oh well, now the easy song in my headphone is taking my thought again to passing the thick clouds, against the blue crispy sky. 

Shut! Not today, but perhaps tomorrow - I'll be just like the Misters who run the oil pipeline, making firm decision. Will I? Sometimes I am scared of my own thought.